Watching The Virgin Diaries, kinda goes like this.
The roommate virgins started singing a song about how they were virgins and i was like:
Then, the girl who is about to get married said she bought crotchless underwear for their first sexual encounter, which is taking place right after THEIR FIRST KISS, so I was like:
Then, her fiance says he is just excited to get some sleep, and I was like:
Then, the one roommate tells her blind date her life plans on their first date, and I was like:
and then the couple finally kissed for the first time ever at their weddding and I was like:
What an awkward day. Why couldn’t I have run into all these people yesterday when I was feeling much better about myself???
Birthdays
I am happy to have a day about me (I know that sounds selfish but I have been so busy lately and have had a ton of bad shit happening, it will be nice to have everyone be super nice to me today). I am excited to see the Orr family, and so far today has been pretty chill :) Lots of my friends have texted me nice messages, and its nice seeing all the Happy Birthdays on facebook, even if I don’t really know them well. They took a second to say happy birthday! I didn’t think I was getting any presents, since my mom bought me a $45 dollar charm for my Pandora Bracelet, but theres a gift bag on the table with some balloons on it. Idk about all you guys, but opening presents is probably the most terrifying thing ever to me. I don’t know how to get a gift without feeling awkward or guilty about it! So, I guess we will see how that goes. Of course, I appreciate the gift a ton, but it does make me feel weird when someone gets me something and wraps it up, to watch me awkwardly unwrap it and see how I react. I’m not a circus show!!!!!!
That feeling when
you have a conversation with someone, and then go back and think about all the ways you could have made it better, like being less awkward, smiling more, saying something witty, etc.
and then you feel like poop cuz you suck at talking to people.
knowing that no matter how hard you or the people around you try to act otherwise, you just don’t fit in.
